I need a mentor ( someone who is patient with an idiot)

I need someone who is patient and has a lot of time.

calling yourself an idiot will get you nowhere

Sparrow:
STILL, never ever call yourself "idiot" or stupid (or the like). Never ever verbally abuse yourself!!! That is self-condemnation; and it will just make things worse for you.
Humans are not perfect beings. Even grandmasters lose to those with ratings far below their's.

I looked at one of your games at random and I suggest you do the free lessons on chess.com.

yeah

my moves are kinda all over the place

did you look at the one with my mentor who has almost no time for me because were in separate time zones

he kinda my mentor kinda not

can y'all join his club? It's called Chess for all levels

I looked at your 38 move game against Bobby which ended in checkmate for white (you were black). You seem to be a new player who knows how the pieces move, but that's about it.

The free lessons will help in giving some purpose to your moves and help you understand the most basic things about the start of the game.

I also suggest you don't play blitz. Like at all.

yeah...

look at my battles with Dimitrios-M

If you go to the "learn" icon on the left there's a "lessons" tab, just give it a try.

I do that all the time because Dimitrios wont let me do anything else he says I need to do lessons and puzzles

He's right about the lessons, for puzzles it may be a bit early.

I've solved a bunch of puzzles

I know that, I just have confidence issues