losing games to my own bad play

better results tonight -got over 180 once tonight - hope tomorrow will be better also

monday morning is going ok about even with play still at 180 will take that for now --

been away for a while due to trying to earn money for lessons here from someone -- but so far no success -- my poker skills are just not what they used to be infact i lost a bit of money so i put myself on a hiatus from that so not to get to far into the dark hole of needing to play --- lesson learned i guess -- maybe i will start playing chess regular again -- till my bank roll is up enough from my pension so i can start to earn some money to get chess lessons -- till then -- chess is what i got to feed my addiction -- tuesday night two wins so good start -- back to 180 where i left off couple of weeks ago

wed night play very--- lost all games --below 150 now sinking to the bottom i guess need to come up with some kind of plan what i don't know but something will see

thursday noon-- very poor play on my part lost all games maybe try a longer game to see what happens

time for a nap maybe after will be better

thursday night no better lost two games to one win downward we go guess

going to try a really stupid idea next game -- maybe it will help laugh off this ridiculous play iam iam doing here we go

think i am about done with this - 100 is a very lonely place to be -- one more game win i stay playing this game lose --iam done

well i won so i will stay playing this game -off for rest of nite meds are starting to kick in tomorrow is another day good luck to all that play tonight

friday noon i just taken my meds so i have about 30 minutes before they kick in and its nap time

lost a couple of games in row not a good start -- tried 10 min games -- just longer time taken to lose the same number of games so back to 3 min games weekend is here grandkids coming over tomorow morning for the morning so no chess for me i guess so i will later tonight longer i guess--

off to la la land two more losses and one win --- oh well -- will see you in 2 hours

well last two days i have playing poker and losing almosr all the winnings i get from lesser games win i get into the bigger game so lost a bit have to stop playing poker till prension check comes in - so back to chess -- about even today same losses and wins about four each so no increase in standing will try a few more since i just got up from afernnon med nap and feel somewhat fresh not great feeling but better than napping

back to the board to see what happens

three losses three wins back after supper

tonight just before bed and the meds are kicking in three straight losses no wins back to 100 again yeps

i believe in you, lostatchess, keep grinding <3

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I have great news for you! There is no other way in chess to lose than by your own bad play. We're all in the same boat whether youre Magnus, Stockfish or Jesus Christ

well Tuesday late afternoon after my med nap went about for course i guess lost three won one but since iam at 100 it really doesn't matter the score right now watched some lessons about end game play here but what i need is a lesson on move 10 / 15 to about 25/35 middle play i guess its called that's where i lose every time-- couple of more games before dinner see what i can do to at least get out of the basement here

thanks for the support to those that gave it grinding is such a @#$%grind@#$%